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Wake up call.

2011-08-28T16:51:00.007+08:00

Self :

Mus , how far do you agree with the fact tht sometimes the situation itself is the one that leads us to devastation ? And not our mindset

Mus :
For its just the way one thinks . feelings can be controlled by our minds , our brain have enough power to bring down a building tapi not many can even use 10% of their brain cells . So , in mus nye opionion , his/her feelings just overpower their mind and make them believe that the situation was the cause of the devastation , just because you spilt up doesnt meant your going down what (I certainly did not mention anyth to him , about why I was devastated in the first place. but, he knew. oh well)

One shouldnt mistake situation as a cause of a problem . its their thoughts and feelings that affects themselves . So kalau separated dont give a fuck about it no matter how ash stymest-like he is , ada lagi orang yg lebih mulia dari laki tu . so dont make yourself down for whatever reason . Cause its just a mistake , when you can finally move on .

Cheer up takmu gila gila kan laki cause we're still young adults tapi kalau bermatair takmu lebih lebih jelah . Whats with the question anw? Of all people , I thought you would know that its never worth to give a fuck about someone who doesnt give a fuck about you.

Self:

I dont knw, I just........lost track in everyth . And everyth isnt right after he left , maybe its me , cause I've been prioritising my Ego and keeping everyth to myself , which in the end led me to self-destruct thus now , at the losing end . Or maybe its just Karma. Maybe i really need him ? Because whenever am down and whenever he's around , I'm always reminded tht someone's still there for me .

Mus:

No matter how much affection you guys have , romance memories or happiness . seha tk sepatotnye wait for him and do wtv you have been doing . its a diff time zone alrd , 2011 is no longer 2008 sehamini. Okay yes , maybe he is your first love , but you have to find your second love and make him your pillar of strength instead la . Make another 5-10 years of memories with someone better , and hope it can last . Just dont repeat any mistakes that you made . I used to have this girl with me , mana mana mus ada dia ada , bila bila mus happy or sad dia ada , but now die tk ada what . Yang ada Wani , so I make Wani that someone I can rely on . Kalau Wani takde , then there must be another one that can be better than her . Logically ah w/o having any emotions , its easy to move on . Perempuan complicated cause of their feelings/emotions . So try to be a bit manly and use some common sense in your decision makings and you will be fine . Im not heartless , I do cry n all but everyth I do has a reason . Siala , mus da mcm priest giving a preach . Hah

It's better to have tried, then to not try and know that you could have had what you really wanted.

2011-08-16T15:53:00.002+08:00

why do we had to bid goodbye again ?

2011-08-14T18:21:00.004+08:00

It just shows me enough that , with or without my presence it makes no difference to his life

:(

2011-08-13T16:07:00.001+08:00

Two of my friends met in accident , again . Sadly , I managed to only keep one . Since June , things has been real hard on me . But its okay , I'm glad that god took him away during this holy month . I'm sad. Yea. Yet theres no point grieving , god must have loved him too much and wants to take him back . Marxie / Mei Ling , I need chu to be strong cause Anyway, I've always known you as a very strong girl, so I shall hold on to that belief. Me and An will come and visit you on monday xo

Al-fatehah to , Akyn Tecktonik/Dudut ♥

Out to geylang with some of em Gingas and Aini , needa stuff myself with 8 dollar deng deng , 2 ayam percik , 2 box of tako balls same krupuk lekko

HAPPY 46TH SPORE!

2011-08-10T18:42:00.003+08:00

And so , Sg had finally turned 46th yesterday whereas Ery , Yan , Miran and Rifdy turned a year older today . On top of that , someone's finally a 'free-man' tomorrow . Not to forget my sister will be turning 21st as well .

Went out with em Gingas together with Aini (only some of them showed up cause now that they're in ITE. majority owns a new 'fuck-your-new-friends' clan) to celebrate national , beforehand , Belle came to my house to borrow a yellow eyeshadow and surprised me by conrow-ing my hair. MHMMMMMMM~

Moving on , we broke our fast at Popeye somewhere near flyers and watched fireworks from there . It wasnt breath-taking neither was it up to my expectations . But that doesnt really count , cause what matters the most is , who I get to spend the day with.

Pictures can't tell how much fun we had :D long live mates - yan

Happy 17th Birthday handsome , I've said what I had to via text message . So I hope you understood what I expect of you . I love you yan xo <3

Hafiz made this cupcake for me . CUTE HORRRRRRRRRRRR THE CUPCAKE, COLOUR COLOUR SOME MORE! Absolutely soft and scrumptious! Plus the middle part of the cupcake is coated with chocolateeeee. #cantgetenoughofit.

formspring.me

2011-08-09T11:01:00.001+08:00

Ah , what ? Ape ? http://formspring.me/sheamxnx

remember us at our best

2011-08-07T16:27:00.002+08:00

"Who do you see yourself with in the future?"

"you."

"I'll marry you I promise"

"*pinky promise*"

Up till today , I still see you.....................................I still do :'(

sometimes a couple think if they kept finding themselves back together after being seperated for countless time , just means they're meant to be with each other . but sometimes it just mean , things will never work between them .
-efyn

As much as i'm trying to make myself hate you in order to move on , I'd still tell myself that youre once the reason to my happiness xx

Gotta grab this before raya

2011-07-25T18:40:00.019+08:00

For now , I only need :

Bobbi brown's scarlet lip gloss in red .

anyone knows where the heck I can get this ?

Sephora's lips injection (too faced)

A lip treatment designed to help plump your lips.
Lip Injection is a clear cosmetic that enhances your pucker for lasting fullness. It can create the sexiest pout . This wonder wand is a celebrity secret weapon against puny, lifeless lips. Yet , it is said tht , when you apply it to your lips it gives you this stinging feeling . MHMMMM~

Cant deny the fact tht I have this urge to try Bio-essence's face lifting cream , it stated tht it gives you a much define and sharper jawline. I seriously got to have this . Otherwise am gonna feel all bloated up on the second day of raya , and yea probably its because of the food that's been consumed on the first day , cause somehow , it will enhance my unglamourous double chin the next day :(

I have to get a bronzer toooo!

Apart from that , I have to go Tanning just to even my skintone , and shall shaped my eyebrow tomorrow anddddddd a day before raya perhaps? keeping a look out for your health as well, be it physically / emotionally isnt.something.fun.

xo

2011-07-25T17:23:00.001+08:00

If you have Envy: “Let it motivate you to improve yourself and become even more better than you are now.

Demi Lovato - Don't Forget

2011-06-23T18:10:00.002+08:00

somewhere we went wrong , we were once so strong...........

all and all , happy 17th birthday

2011-06-12T23:57:00.003+08:00

I could still remember your 14-17th birthday vividly . I could recall the first time I met chu , how we met , what you wore and stuffs like that . I could recall the first time I met your family . I could recall how we got closer as time passed . I wanna be the last one to wish you cause I wanna be the last one to let chu know how special you are on your special day . Yes , we went through alot , and no I dont really regard you as my bestfriend cause youre more like my very own sibling . Since 2007 , throughout the journey we had , those hardship , getting into sticky situations , breakups and make-ups , neglecting one another . You're still here for me , and I appreciate that . Alot . I hope that I've been doing the same thing as your bestfriend cause that's what I really want chu to feel . Lastly , it doesnt matter how far you are or how long we hadnt met , what matters the most is that. .KAU MASIH AKU PUNYE MBEM ELFYNA JOFFERY ! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY , SAYANG KAU KEPALE BABI MUAH ! I LOVE YOU.

Best friends have conversations impossible to understand by other people , just like us . I hope you know that you're never alone, and that somebody out there loves you more than you will ever know. If shes amazing, she wont be easy. If shes easy, she wont be amazing. If shes worth it, you wont give up. If you give up, you're not worthy. AND YES SHE IS AMAZING AND WORTH IT.

One million memories, ten thousand inside jokes, one hundred shared secrets, one reason: Best friends.

Please be okay , E .

2011-06-10T22:18:00.010+08:00

FIFIE AND I COULDNT STOP LAUGHING OUR ASS OFF WHENEVER WE WATCH THIS VIDEO!
SO YEA , WATCH !
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I slept at bestf's new apartment , since she had shifted somewhere near artpark . MEHEHE , tak nak bilg korang pat mane . I brought my ps3 along beforehand . Yes , I carried the WHOLE thing . We talked , chuckled alot , gossiped , danced , learn how to dougie and irritate one another . I lament out what I had kept to myself the whole time . And yes , am very reluctant that I had the opportunity to spend time with her , until today , I received a text message from Marx , telling me that Ernie met in an accident .

MACAM MANA NI HIDUP SEKARANGGGGGGGGGGG . DENGAN TADE PREPAID CUME FREE INCOMING AJA . ROKOK TADE , ADIK KAKI TEMPANG , DUIT TINGGAL 16 DOLLAR. HAIS.............................................

p/s: someone's turning 17 next 2 days .

#Confession

2011-06-09T00:28:00.000+08:00

Honestly , yes there is.....................
"die tahu tk password kau , macam mane aku tahu password kau?"
I just wish you knew,
cause
its, its you.

Anddddd the next thing I knew the convo ended in a #$%!&*_l_?iegfwmakkaugileubdfjew way -_______________-
wtf.

So hi. I, sehamini laughed alot today.

Seha: Toman ape tu toman?
All: its a fish. ikan.
Seha: toman dlm bahase english ape?
Danial : topman.

And then we talked about Islam.
Afiq: Laki kalau peggang sonet sendiri bedose tau.
Seha: HUH?! SERIOUS PE??

"PWEASH UNCLE ED. PAKCIK AKU YANG PALING TEBAIK SKALI DALAM DUNIE"

HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

NEVER FUCKING UNLEASH YOUR FUCKING DOG

2011-06-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

Am back from swimming at J.E swimming pool complex with Ferina , Dan , Dy and Afiq and helping out Ferina & Dy's grandma shifting bulky furnitures from houses to houses at the very last minute . HAHA , it was totally unexpected . Cause right after we stepped out from the swimming pool complex we had our lunch and then went to 'the usual place' by then Dy received a call from his mum telling us to make our to grandma house cause there's some issues that needs to be settled . So we did , and then.......that's where the unexpectations comes in .

I wonder why some people are stupid enough to fucking unleash their fucking dog when they already know that we, Muslims , cant associate with or even touch dogs . AND YET THEY CALL THIS A MULTI-RACIAL COUNTRY? hah, what a joke .

That brings me back to the incident in the afternoon where , the 5 of us almost fell asleep on a metallic bench and ferina had to shout because theres this small hairy dog who was in the verge of licking Dy's leg . Despite being too petrified , she had difficulty shouting
"AHHH.....! AHH! ADEKKKKKKKK!"

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

Since I came home at this hour , bestfriend has already fallen asleep.........i am #foreveralone :( I miss you man.

Esmée Denters - Outta Here

2011-06-07T12:10:00.000+08:00

Since Sue said that one of the female singer , Esmee Denters, has almost the same hairstyle as me (now) . So I decided to check out Outta here 's official music video . And to find out that the part where she has this bangs and a straight front-short back long hairstyle , made me feel "UHUUUUU!~". On the contrary side , she has a v thick hair though.......................... :(

"It's so amazing how you have so many faces And you are not that person I thought that I had fell so deep in love with"

RING A BELL?

Ohhhhhhhhh , my mary janeeeeeee

2011-06-06T00:37:00.005+08:00

CLICK TO ENLARGE . how pathetic can they can get ? -________-
The paparazis , I mean . This source is rather unreliable , it might be just a rumour yet again it might be for real . Technically , if it is true . It had wasted a day of my life , cause eventually I skipped school on the day of the grand wedding ceremony (which was on friday if am not mistaken) , woke up early in the morning just to watch it on E! entertainment . I longed for a life like Kate , I mean who doesnt wanna get married in a wedding dress which cost you between $300,000 to $450,000 ? Though right now , that does not matter anymore. the whole point is , it had wasted 1 day of my life , sitting at home for the whole day , watching their wedding ceremony which only lasted for 5 weeks . W A S T E D . dont chu think so ?
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My throat is killing me , and mum has been giving me this bizarre fish-like smell liquid for me to drink since morning . She assured me that , it'll lessen the discomforts and damages in my throat . Not only it smells like fish , it tasted so.......ee. Absolutely repulsive am telling you .

Since spore is indeed a very very very small country where you can find everyone wearing the same thing , the same clothing thus , I made a point to shop via net , its not that am being all thrifty and cheapskate here , you dont want to end up wearing the same thing as EVERYONE do you ? and em' girls gon' say "EEE , tengok la die ikut aku" WHERE GOT TIMEEEEEE~.

http://www.thewhatisdope.com
http://www.trendysg.com
http://ebay.com ( you need a pre-pal card or a credit card if you intend to purchase any items)
here are some blogshop links , that you might wanna check it out if you happen to be a blogshopper (?) is there even sucha word ? HAHAHA .

Or simply type

Lovely ShoesFest (ShoesFest)
Vs Bags
Bags Shop Sg
in facebook .

Apart from that , since my creamy Swank's mary jane doesnt look creamy at all now , its absolutely awful . I went to Ebay.com to survey a pure white mary jane from Dr.Marten for me (I KAN RUDEGIRL , POOR , I TAK BYK DOCTOR MARTEN KALAU I BELI DOCTOR MARTEN I BELI ONE SIZE BIGGER JADI DOCTOR MARTEN I SAMPAI SKG BOLEH MUAT TAPI MASALAH NYE DOCTOR MARTEN YG BOOT TU RUDEGIRL MANA BOLEH PAKAI KAN?) but then again someth hold me back . And it was this baby..........

ah ni la white dr.marten yg shea nak !
but my mind tells me that its worth to buy thissssssss , mana nk dapat dancehall with heels :D

So how now brown cow ? Pft , I hate to be fickle .

FAIL = (F)irst (A)ttempt (I)n (L)earning

2011-06-04T14:14:00.007+08:00

nak tengok shea tade make up ?

Tahu la buruk tamu la kutuk . I unprivate my blog since I just feel like doing so , many changes have occured for the past few weeks bestfriend fifie has shifted house somewhere near jp . I've been getting seriously serious with my studies . And infact , june holidays doesnt even feel like holiday to me . Since I had to go back to school every weekdays just so that I could complete my DnT coursework . So! am back to being single . Mehehehe , and I shall continue to persue my resolution's for this year , abit disappointed though but heck , its way much better than to feel so useless for someone and feeling rather fucked up every now and then thus resulting me in having migraines everyday -_________________-
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Tsk tsk , moving onnnnnnnnnnnnnn! I promise myself that by the end of this year am gonna have my body looking like Lola Monroe or Kim Kardashian or even Jessica alba or even....DREAM ON. I've been saying that since last year . So apparently , as you can see girl's diet will always starts tomorrow and the next day and the next day and the next day . Yet still , I will try my best to make it happen uh . If possible . Right then , so basically noth much has happen today . Mama bought me a new perfume , no its not Kylie minogue's show time fragrance or YSL's young sexy lovely . Its white musk from body shop . Was abit disappointed though , but wtheck as long as I dont smell then that's good enough .

Apart from that ,
I was spammed in formspring but I chose not to ans. those questions cause well , there's no point in doing so . Entertaining immatures is fun but overtime it just bores me cause ultimately I'll grow tired and soon I realised that the decadent immature likes it. HA HA . Moreover , I know clearly who's the culprit is , shall not mention it here though . Its obvious . So just stop being indenial . Its okay , I dont get mad I get even . Just know that sometimes, a woman's INSTINCT is better than a man's EXCUSE .

will update more when am free . xx .

apxc

2011-05-24T23:29:00.004+08:00

I remember you asking me , "yknow , they say, there's a whole lot of fishes out there , who might outbeat me in anyth . Yet of all fishes , why me ?"
And I answered , "No , I dont want all those similar looking fishes . I came for my Nemo"

sorrehhhhhhhhhhhh

2011-05-17T00:52:00.003+08:00

currently at fifie/efyn's house w ibu , jiji , bin bin (the cat) so hi computer break down brow, laptop da lame kene pepsi. will update vvvvv soon . promise . naik berabuk blog ni , ish .

❒Single ❒Taken ✔ Depends on who's asking

2011-04-24T18:48:00.005+08:00

Those will be the best therapy for me .

2011-04-07T19:10:00.008+08:00

I remember everyth little thing about her . I miss those times when we were still alive and kicking . Was so into club (yes i know , kental much ?) you and I used to hit the clubs on every thurs & sat night , I remember how we first met , I remember my 13th at Zirca . I remember texting you every minute of every hour . I remember your 16th at Swensen . I remember how we kept telling ourselves it'd always be chicks-before-dicks . I remember...I GET MONEY I GET PAPER I GET ~~GUYS~~ SHOTS ALL DIFFERENT FLAVOURS . I kinda miss you , terribly much :/ give me a call or someth okay ? Will drop by east side one day . Promise . I still love you little girl .

xx much misses ,

What are words when you really dont mean them when you say them ?

2011-04-05T19:03:00.008+08:00

"youre likely to have thelesmia"
"whats a- wait , does it has anyth to do w leukemia?"
"i'm afraid so :/ but not to worry , there's still cure . though , if you're not aware enough it will aggravate"

Take the time just to listen when the voices screaming are much too loud . Take a look in the distance try and see it all , chances are that I might find that you and I share a common discomfort now . I feel that I'm walking a fine line , but tell me if its real ?
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Exactly , no its not real .
I'm not fine . Having to know what destiny has put chu into and bringing yourself to accept fate is , 2 fucking different stories . All and all , I know by now someone's gonna take a step out from my life .

I shall thank Erna for being there when I'm at my upmost fear , she was there to hold me tight and assure me that everyth's gonna be okay be it the blood test or the urine . Just a question , where were you when I needed chu the most ? Nowhere . What I get was a good cry in the bus :/

Look chump , you really think you live ?

2011-04-02T01:46:00.002+08:00

You think youre gangster cause you did time ,
well listen here gangster dont cross the line .

Fuhuuuuuuu ! da (TEEN)ager !

2011-03-23T17:37:00.010+08:00

Tahu la cute mcm kakaknye kaaan . AHAHA -.- So , this is my little brother when he was 9 . Now he's turned 13 .
My bad for not having his recent picture to upload.

Whoaaaaa , big boy already ah nowwwww . As you grow , along the way , you will learn new things , mix around with new friends and definitely , a year older only means a year wiser for you . Degil nak mampus kan kau kadang kadang . There's always a reason why I tend to go hard on you , cause I dont want chu to face whatever that I faced and I dont want chu to end up being like me . Aim for the best , be the best if that's possible . Yet , let say if things doesnt happen that way and having said that IF LA IF KAY IF TAU NI (touchwood) youre a drug dealer , ex-convict or even an addict I'm still gonna love you . Still , dont ever think of becoming one la -.-
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Lastly , youre talented , show them what chu got . Never let anyone stop you from dancing cause it runs in the blood remember ? :)
I will and forever always keep supporting you from the back . Trust me .
No matter how old youre gonna be , 16 , 18 , 21 , 30.........I'm still gonna pamper you like a baby .

Sorry for all the scoldings , cursings , harsh words
Sorry for all the times that I pin-you-down-to-the-floor and slamming you to the wall
Sorry for all the fights
Sorry for not being the best sister .

And please tamu grow lagi taller dari Seha please ? Kau da nak same height dengan aku kau tahu takkkkkkkkkk . K ?
K , sayang Muhd Shamizi Bin Suradi xoxo
&
A HAPPY 13TH BIRTHDAY BRUHHHH !
present utang utang la , now tenga P.A.D (pokai ah dok)

Paranoid.

2011-03-22T19:01:00.001+08:00

_l_

2011-03-19T13:32:00.006+08:00

ITS NOT A FUCKING JOKE OR FUCKING CUTE ANYMORE WHEN YOURE FUCKING 13 AND YOU FUCKING REFUSE TO FUCKING ADMIT YOUR FUCKING MISTAKE AND PUT THE FUCKING BLAME ON OTHERS . So you cant accept the fact that I cause a lump on your son's head ? DO I LOOK LIKE I FUCKING CARE ? N O . Cause your son here mama , doesnt have the guts to admit his mistakes . I've been quiet and lenient on him most of the time , I've been taking up his shits just so that he wouldnt get in trouble . Infact , I could still list out those 101 things he had done behind everyone's back .
Its time he deserves what he deserve long time ago , from nonetheless , me .

And guess what shitface ?

You'd successfully hit my boiling point .

PMS

2011-03-19T12:49:00.001+08:00

mividaclarissaxo:

You go to school like this :

When someone says something rude to you:

& then when everyone asks what’s wrong your just like :

I WENT TO THE CLUB AND.......YADAYADAYADA

2011-03-18T23:48:00.008+08:00

hecktotheyes:

Whaaa-whaaa-whaaat did she sayyyyyyyy ?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA Mayasarah Binte Danial Rizal & Suzyana Ilizawati Binte Hasan tenguk niiiiii !

TGIF

2011-03-18T21:01:00.020+08:00

"OIIIII SIALA GOT CICAK!! @#$%&*_l_ MAMAAAAAAAAAAAAAA !!!!! Maaaaaaaaaa !! "
WHAMP!
There goes your life you Rango muka mcm hehehe .

Little brother : mama kenape tak kasi die lari sampai masuk seha nye laundry basket ??
Mama : Ade nanti kakak kau lost virginity die dekat cicak .
Little brother : HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! okay ah tu nanti die boleh rave lagi laju kalau pegi club with cicak dangling dangling jalan jalan pat bulu die .

I admit I reacted recklessly when I saw that lizard , so fat so white so eeeee !@#$%&* Sometimes , I compare my life with The Kardashians wondering if it could get any rowdier ? Then again all of us 3 siblings had a talk with my mama and come to think of it , I dont really wanna end up becoming a worthless daughter . I dont want to grow up feeling that its a need for me to carry my teenage routine (e.g clubbing , not coming home often ) with me after becoming a teenage adult . Yet its quite early too actually to think about all these but its a great start to slowly cut down on all these havoc activities though .
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Anywayyyyyyyyy since Syukri is working today and I was ultimately plain lazy to go anywhere , I decided to stay home and help mama with some of the house chores . On the other hand , what ya'll didnt know is that I did the most randomest thing in my whole entire life , I actually tried out www.barbie.com . Believe me it wasnt that bad afterall yknow . Yes those who know me well would be like "OMG!! SEHAMINI ? BARBIE SITE?! DOOM'S DAY IS NEARING" . I had to find someth to occupy my time whaaaaaaat ! Thus , I designed a dress for Barbie, write a message for Ken and etc.

And then I went to www.didigames.com , okay la not so bad la . I played Class Kiss Game where you had to make those two lovebirds kiss w/o getting caught by the teacher or else she would be yelling "MAYAYAYA!!" FUNNY NAK MAMPUS I TELL YOU though the sad thing is , you have to restart the game alllllllllllll over again la -_-

Moving on ,
I went google to search for inspirations for a new hair cut , body tone etc. Gonna upload their pictures now

You see you dont have to have white fair skin , blonde hair to be the girl next door cause the in trend now is to be the next legally brunette with long big curls .

do you know that sperm is healthy for the ladies? it prevent breast cancer.. you gerls should try it.. and get guys to give you sperm..

2011-03-18T16:18:00.001+08:00

eee sakit kuat pergi mati lekas la kau .

Damn shawty yknow what to do ;)

Make up what I lack

2011-03-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

hi okay so I burned my thursday night with my old time favourite people . Y'all used to see us running the streets of City hall on every weekend right ? Y'all used to see us united with other sub-cultures. If you ask me why we drift apart ? I can assure that none of us can recall why . Ok perhaps there were too much fights , arguements , misunderstanding between one another or we were simply busy with our own personal life . Although likewise , it doesnt matter cause either way , certain events or reunion will bring us back together , just like old times . Embarrassed or not , I managed to skank my heart out . Its been a long time since I did that , HA HA HA .

Aftermath , I went home w Kart Alice (okay la actually I didnt went home straight , I met Syukri beforehand just to clear things off) , while we were in the train we reran the whole pictures in my camera . As a result , we caught A SNEAK PEEK OF A NIPS SLIP AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !!!!!!!! Alice , if you're reading this I know you'd be laughing your ass off .
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Syukri refused to meet me cause for the past few days he had been complaining on how suckish his hair was , yet we did meet la . The moment we met...........(aku ade la pike rabak sangat rambut die case sideburn kene chop rabak pakai ruler gitu , rambut kuncu kuncu kontol) BELIEVE ME ! ITS NOT BAD AT ALL . >> AT ALL <<<. Ngade ngade right him -_____________________- Plus , I thought we were actually going to argue like there's no tomorrow despite being so rude and cruddy via text messages though it didnt happened that way , surprisingly , we talked . YES , talked .
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And so I spent my Friday morning with him .

"oi nk tgk world invasion?"
"ape kau ? its L.a invasion uh sia"
"WORLD LA."
"Ke kau yang world?"
"Kau ade ade je la Syukri -_________-"

"Okay kite check , kalau siape salah kene forfeit ."

So basically ,
Syukri's forfeit : He has to go about clapping his hands for 5 mins .
As for me : I have to walk around raising my hands up and down continuously for 5 mins

"Ah kay , lepas tu background lagu teng kedak kedung kedak kedung~"
"Sinehhhhhhhhhhh kene pipehhhhhhhhhhhh"
"Kau ade jiran ?"
"Ade , siape name die ?"
"Wendy."
"HAAAAAAHAHAHAHAH"

"eh aku nk try draw kening"
"keh come"
"ASL TK MCM OPERA OPERA?!"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH"

"laaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaap"
"*conteng kening die lagi* HAHAAAAHAHAHA"

wat dyou do when you and your boyf is having an arguement and it exagerate for days but he still refuses to talk about it and he's expecting you to apologise wud you or wud you not?

2011-03-16T21:03:00.001+08:00

I wont apologise if it isnt my fault , cause if I give in he wouldnt learn from his mistake . And if he doesnt want to commit then why should i be the one trying so hard to make everything possibly right when I feel that I had done what I could but he insist in being ego ? I probably would give him some time to calm himself down and if he still refuses to talk and let things aggravate for days , i would just find someth to occupy myself with so that I wont waste my time being all devastated .

Damn shawty yknow what to do ;)

The smell of your skin still lingers :/

2011-03-16T19:37:00.005+08:00

I carry around this sweater wherever I go . And will smell it just before I tuck in to bed I dont want to miss you but I am missing you , too much

But then again.................... sigh .

3 MORE DAYS LEFT to 12 HOURS DIRTY DUTCH BEACH PARTY @ AZZURA KAKAK RAVER AND FRIENDS ! SO ARE YOU COMING ??

2011-03-16T18:13:00.001+08:00

wtf............? 0.o NO / i'm NOT GOING / NOT ATTENDING/ NOT PARTYING/TIDAK / TAK / TIDAK HADIR/ TAK AKAN . final/fullstop/tanda titik .

Damn shawty yknow what to do ;)

trolololololol.

2011-03-15T21:53:00.008+08:00

"I don’t want a perfect relationship. I just want someone who I can act silly with, someone who treats me right and loves being with me."

"I'm scared they'll think that eversince you had me around , you neglect them."
"Its ok I can tell them that I love spending my time with you rather than hanging out w a bunch of friends who will spend their ample of time bitch-fitting"

I'll find other way to spend my 19th

2011-03-15T15:24:00.004+08:00

One of them who I cant afford to lose .

To be honest , I was really looking forward to 19th march . Was planning to celebrate with each and every one of my party people before I get downright serious with studies but I guess that thought has got to go , I wont be attending . And that's final . I like partying with all of you , we were once a family I remembered , but now , I can no longer dealt with all these communication breakdown/holding grudges/ taking up sides w one another . Shan called me this morning , he was engross thought I'd be attending though he was disappointed with whatever I had to say . Fortunately , he perfectly understood what I was feeling . I cant be that middle-person who's been keeping herself sedated whenever everyone is in a midst of arguement . I cant possibly take sides nor can I budge , am I right ? As mention before , I love yall . I'm sorry but to be honest , I'm prepared to lose anyone of you now .
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Its affecting , it cruddy , to know what this situation had become .
And Ming , listen , I know life has been giving you a hard time . But perhaps everything happens for a reason , it cant possibly be raining all the time right ? Miracles and hope happens every now and then . Just so yknow , whenever you feel like everyone is turning their back on you I'll be the first one to turn my back on them . All I need is a day to talk to you , listen etc. I may not constantly remind you that i love you but I remembered there was a wise girl whom once told me that among all of us she's determined that I love her , I laughed and said that you're really just self assuming but the fact is , I do . I was once in your shoes , I understand how you feel . Some people out there , are just meant to be heartless . I'm sorry , if I could do it all over again I would have refrain the incident from happening , please dont stray yourself away . Always remember that we're just a phonecall away .

i heard that youre family is rather passionate and talented. what are they into ? does it include your parents too? when/where did the talent come about ? and when did you soon realise that you have talent ?

2011-03-13T17:31:00.001+08:00

whoaaa , you must went in too deep . yes it includes my parents too . okay , basically , since my mum was once a dancer when she was much much younger , she made us 3 siblings (my elder sister , younger brother and myself) sign up for a dance class when were young , i was prolly around 6 at that point of time . as for my dad , he's basically a musician , he's more into music than choreographing .

Damn shawty yknow what to do ;)

xoxo.

2011-03-13T16:45:00.001+08:00

"Boy I'll let chu love me let chu love me long time~" hehehe n____________n

Now hush little one, it was only just a dream.

2011-03-06T15:55:00.004+08:00

I had a dream , a dream that was rather yet close to reality . It happened before , I know it did . I dont like waking up early in the morning after having a nightmare , with the feeling that I am all alone in the world.......
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Now tell me , what do you do , if youre still haunted by your traumatizing past ? What happens if you kept dreaming of the same traumatizing incident over and over again? You have nothing to stop it , no control over it . Cause it appears in your dream as and when it like . I mean I'm through with it . But at some point of time , something might trigger my thoughts to reminisce back everyth that happened back then . How I struggled to escape , how I cried the for hours , I WAS ALONE I WAS EMBARRASSED , ULTIMATELY DISAPPOINTED , Let alone , I was afraid .
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But as for now am reluctant enough to have someone who accept me , flaws and all . Despite having such bitter past . I love you , S.

do u think its wrong for friends to date their friends ex ?

2011-03-05T16:59:00.001+08:00

in my perspective , its okay i guess , depending on the situation that is . Unless if your friend is not over their ex , then dont . Its better to lose a date than a friend . if you're a true friend , you would think of one's feeling first before deciding to get into an open relationship w your friend's ex , wouldnt you ? think of the outcome , those scathing remarks that you're gonna swallow , is it gonna jeopardise your friendship between your friend . Though on the other hand , the other party should accept the fact that an ex is called an ex is because things didnt work out between them , he's someone who only exist in his/her past life . So basically , its a two way here .

Damn shawty yknow what to do ;)

Wake up call.

2011-03-01T19:15:00.006+08:00

Mum has been questioning me alot about you , I know we're growing . I know this is the time where we start developing , physically and mentally . We're changing , slowly revealing who we really are , crawling out from our suits we've been living in since young . This is time where we chase freedom , get ourselves expose to the real world , differentiate between friends or foes and the good and bad . So listen , we're no longer young where the hardest choice was picking up crayon colours , Shafiq Amy . The hardest choice now , at this age , is to make stern decisions by telling influencer off , by holding up our family's name , keeping your reputation upright .
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You see , I was like you once . No , I wasnt a goodie two shoe if you ask me , I was a burden to everyone , parents had to bail me out from one HQ to another . I got into trouble very often to be truthful , I drink , I did drugs but I only had one precept and that is to come clean till am married . Believe it or not , till today , I am one . Thinking back , junking and getting drunk on every saturday isnt something that you should be proud of . Cause you're wasted plus you're even wasting your time and your money . Still , in my preception its okay to drink occasionally , but I've stopped for some reason . Its okay to make yourself feel fit in with the crowd , yet just before you place yourself in any sticky situation , asked yourself if youre capable enough to take the risk .
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Okay yknow what , the main point here is : Just make rules as you grow ok . Get that brain working . Nak jadi jahat boleh , tade orang halang tapi kepale otak mahu pakai la . Jangan sampai tejejas kan nama baik keluarge tu je aku mintak kau .
One thing for sure , haters gonna talk , hate , discriminate and will try their best to pull us down .
Cause NEWS FLASH , kite own quite a number of makcik kpo in the family and they already had their eyes set on us , not just you and me , but our cousins as well . They're watching every steps that we take , thinking that we may fall anytime now or even bring shame to this family . Cause why ? Their enviousness got them behaving likewise Amy , that's why .

2011-03-01T17:24:00.005+08:00

“Dude, wanna hang out?” “Nah, hanging out with my girl man.” “What happened to bros before hoes?” “That rule still goes, but it’s just that she ain’t a hoe.”

I got them . what do you have ? :D

2011-02-28T16:53:00.003+08:00

yang gambar ni miran tak matter langsung uh , sorry tapi its the fact la.

Addicted.

2011-02-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

Die punye chorus so catchy please hehehe

I was never pefect in the past , never is , never will be :/

2011-02-26T20:05:00.003+08:00

The past could always be annihilated . Regret, denial, or forgetfulness could do that. But the future was inevitable .
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Yet its ok , at least I still have those people who grab hold of my back , who'd standby to catch me when am dangled on a string , who would go up to em' haters and tell them that no matter how hard they try to bring me down , not by any chances ...... its gonna affect me :)

this is so sedih man .

2011-02-22T17:10:00.008+08:00

I am not doing a good job at taking care of my body & my appearance , I dont eat moderately now , I have dark scores under my eye , my skin is dry , my hair is dry , its been a loooooooong time since I went for body massage & spa , my nails are atrocious . Lastly , I spent most of my time mugging during weekdays , I barely go out on every saturday now . And no , if you asked me , its been quite some time since I last feel agitated and excited on thursday , cause usually almost every week on every thursday , it'll be a ladies night for me . But not anymore mini , not anymore . YET MOST IMPORTANTLY I DONT EVEN HAVE TIME TO SHOP!!!!!!!!

I'm not surprise if one day my hair is gonna grow white . I is sad I feel like ugly betty now . Boohoo :(

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Precisely , school had turned me into a workaholic . Other than that , am currently having pms , when I do , I tend to become rather vain . I dont like it , I dont like it all cause I'd be all self-conscious about my image . Despite everything , daymn , this situation sickens me . I dont even like catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror for the time being :(((((((((((((((((((((

KKES

2011-02-21T21:48:00.015+08:00

Look at us , when we were young , the 4 of us..were inseperable . We used to pop pills almost every Saturday back then . Slept around the clock during holidays . Having sleep overs , talk on the phone for hours , etc. We all had our imperfections , others find it as flaws . But we dont .

Ask me if I could still recall how we met and came about , I could tell you from A-Z vividly .

Maybe some of ya'll had been forgotten because everybody ask me where ya'll at ? I tried to channel you , in hopes that I could steal ya'll back but it's like every intersection we just missed each other . And tell me that each and every one of you are coming back and that you just took a break . Yet I needed to grow and I needed to know , that's the reason why I never look back . But there's still some things inside of me that I needed to show . I had to make some changes , I hope you guys understood . You see for every bad , I did a ton of good . I live the life now , that we would daydream . My only wish is you guys come enjoy it with me .
But I still miss us when we was on some stupid shit .

Alice , thanks for the times you had always stood up next to me when everyth fell apart , when I feel like the world is turning their backs against me . You're the greatest gift i love you

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2011-02-14T20:12:00.002+08:00

Look , grinning before kissing . Just like us ;)

Nose to nose , cheek to cheek , eye to eye , palm to palm , forehead to forehead . Endless convo till morning , tight hugs . ♥

yew and alice stunning eh..korang bleh jadi swimsuit model.. wah ;)

2011-02-10T00:18:00.001+08:00

awww ;) kart alice you mean ? thank you , you kind hearted soul . but swim suit model only kart aja la boleh . i cnnt :( babat pat perut besepah laaa.

Damn shawty yknow what to do ;)

would you rather live in indonesia or malaysia?

2011-02-09T22:01:00.001+08:00

indonesia . cause ada Bali <3

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Wake up call.

It's better to have tried, then to not try and know that you could have had what you really wanted.

why do we had to bid goodbye again ?

:(

HAPPY 46TH SPORE!

formspring.me

remember us at our best

Gotta grab this before raya

xo

Demi Lovato - Don't Forget

all and all , happy 17th birthday

Please be okay , E .

#Confession

NEVER FUCKING UNLEASH YOUR FUCKING DOG

Esmée Denters - Outta Here

Ohhhhhhhhh , my mary janeeeeeee

FAIL = (F)irst (A)ttempt (I)n (L)earning

apxc

sorrehhhhhhhhhhhh

❒Single ❒Taken ✔ Depends on who's asking

Those will be the best therapy for me .

What are words when you really dont mean them when you say them ?

Look chump , you really think you live ?

Fuhuuuuuuu ! da (TEEN)ager !

Paranoid.

_l_

PMS

I WENT TO THE CLUB AND.......YADAYADAYADA

TGIF

do you know that sperm is healthy for the ladies? it prevent breast cancer.. you gerls should try it.. and get guys to give you sperm..

Make up what I lack

wat dyou do when you and your boyf is having an arguement and it exagerate for days but he still refuses to talk about it and he's expecting you to apologise wud you or wud you not?

The smell of your skin still lingers :/

3 MORE DAYS LEFT to 12 HOURS DIRTY DUTCH BEACH PARTY @ AZZURA KAKAK RAVER AND FRIENDS ! SO ARE YOU COMING ??

trolololololol.

I'll find other way to spend my 19th

i heard that youre family is rather passionate and talented. what are they into ? does it include your parents too? when/where did the talent come about ? and when did you soon realise that you have talent ?

xoxo.

Now hush little one, it was only just a dream.

do u think its wrong for friends to date their friends ex ?

Wake up call.

“Dude, wanna hang out?” “Nah, hanging out with my girl man.” “What happened to bros before hoes?” “That rule still goes, but it’s just that she ain’t a hoe.”

I got them . what do you have ? :D

Addicted.

I was never pefect in the past , never is , never will be :/

this is so sedih man .

KKES

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yew and alice stunning eh..korang bleh jadi swimsuit model.. wah ;)

would you rather live in indonesia or malaysia?

Lima.

drugs are ...

Anyone caan SPAM moi FS pleassh ?! :D I have plenty of tyme with nth to do (Y) SPAAM kae !!! :D I shaal WAIT ! ^^ NYEHEHE :)

prata or thosai?

malay food or indian food?

do you think im hot??

do you think your hot??

most sexiest celebrity?

clubbing or gig??

baseball / snowboarding / surfing ?

motor / car / van / truck?

colgate / darlie/ sensodyne / dettol ? which want you use to brush teeth??

how long do you bathe??

have u ever wanted to be a mat or minahrep??

batman/superman/spiderman/keluang man?? which u prefer?

Name one thing you would go back and change if you had a time machine.

Baby ble nk meet? you dont care me alr. :(

sombowdee

Oi!

So whats the matter with you ? sing me something new...

Like Ice-skating?

Stand by me.

status kau mcm harsh, kau yer orang aku tgk mcm tk harsh aje, cume kurang expression gan perasaan ah.. untuk siapa tu status by the way. ?

school tomorrow anyone?

McD, KFC or BK?

korang pernah nampak hantu??! hantu ape?? k

Saturdayed .

Is Singapore boring? is it too small?

Why you so cute and small? Hahaahha :))